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[22 Mar 2007|12:45am] |
I haven't updated this thing in forever. Haven't had much to say! It just would've been a lot of sad break up stuff, and that's never good. But in a nutshell! Me and boyfriend broke up, boyfriend said he wanted to see other people, I spent a month sad and lonely :(, boyfriend said he didn't want to see other people and he wanted me. So we've been in limbo for awhile. :/ Neither of us are really sure what to do next. What I wouldn't give for him to tell me he loves me though. GAH BOYS.
In other news! After years of getting hand me down computers, I finally got a new one of my own! An IMac, it'll take a while to get used to it but i'm excited! Just need to get all the junk off my old one and set it up!
And uhm, hm. I think I have a girl crush on Chelsea from that pussy cat doll show. She is so hot though! Love her. I've been really into reality shows lately for whatever reason. Them and food network. Hrm.
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[23 Nov 2006|06:44am] |
Boys are so.. gah. Boyfriend is coming in from school, to spend time with his family. :o I don't know why but he seemed to get pissed at me right before he left. So I don't think he's gonna come see me. :/ WHY MUST IT ALWAYS BE COMPLICATED.
ON ANOTHER NOTE! Happy thanksgiving. :D Hope yall have a lovely day. <3.
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[14 Oct 2006|06:41am] |
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Why can I never get on a normal sleeping schedule for the life of me? '-' I'll actually sleep normal hours for a few weeks, at the most, then it's back to staying up til work and crashing once I get home. :/
sdfjlksd rawr. And doing this usually just makes me cranky! And that is never good.
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[05 Sep 2006|12:15pm] |
Could the heat be any more ridiculous?! I seriously can't wait for fall/winter. Hopefully it's a nice chilly one!
I'm looking foward to Halloween and Christmas too. For some reason. :o Not sure why! But at least they bring nice tv specials! <3
Hrm. I should probably clean out my friends/communties. Lots of strikeouts. ;x
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[05 Sep 2006|12:05pm] |
Hrm. Wow. It's been over a year since i've even came here. :o Let alone updated! But hi! Anyone who still has me on their list. WHICH IS PROBABLY NO ONE. :(
But hm. One year. Someone with an exciting life would have all sorts of stuff to write about! I got nothin'! :D Which is why i'm contemplating why I wanted to start this again. But I guess I just missed talking to myself! And be nosy about other people's lives. :o
Ps. Autosave is hot! And hi i'm probably months behind on that, but still hot.
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[01 Sep 2005|02:12am] |
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Couldn't sleep, so I figured might as well update this! Hmm, not a lot has been happening to tell ya the truth. I probably have the most boring uneventful life ever. lol
Parents finally decided they want to move to Utah. Found a house and buisness they liked there...and as much as I want to get outta California...I find myself wishing to stay here. :/ If I could only afford the million dollar rent. :(
Went and took my Ged pre test last week. Passed :D but...it all reminded me why I stopped going to school in the first place. For some reason I just can't stand to be around people like that. And the teachers were complete bitches. Was kinda funny though...after they knew I passed they did a total 360 on their attitudes and were quite nice lol. First day I went I didn't have a pencil and they tried to SELL me one for 25 cents. I was like WTF O_O. And today they just handed me one lol.
Hmm, went and got an eye exam and some super cute glasses. :D Finally will stop being damn near blind.
Saw "Red Eye" today. It was perrrty good. I liked it a lot. Rachel McAdams did quite nice in that roll. So did the guy. He had AMAZING eyes.
I haven't talked to my younger brother in over a month. Right after he spent 2 or so hours telling me how much I suck and will never amount to anything. :D Kinda makes me sad...cause all things considered I do love the kid and enjoy his company, but I just can't stand when he gets like that. Sigh life.
Anyways! Imma go watch some more "Phantom of the Opera" and see if I can sleep. Love yall! :D
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[13 Jul 2005|06:52am] |
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And another thing.. wtf is wrong with the people in this world. Yesterday I was watching tv and a preview for the news came on.. "Fatal shooting leaves toddler dead. Was used as a human sheild". I seriously couldn't believe it. A human sheild wtf!?! If I saw a baby, even if I didn't know whose it was!, i'd use myself as a human sheild over it. That is just so awful. Society these days man. Some things seriously blow my mind. How could you live with yourself after you did that? :l
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[13 Jul 2005|06:48am] |
I just want to take this time to state my extreme distaste for Ebay. :( They suspended my account and now I can't bid on things. Love/hate relationship. But I wasn't doing anything! I did do something for my first warning ((sold unauthorized dvds blah)) lol, but this second one wasn't me. :((
HMPH. But you know, it could ((and probably is)) be a good thing. I won't blow my money on useless stuff lol. But it's all so addicting!
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[06 Jul 2005|04:58pm] |
Man I have a boring life. I keep thinking of something, anything to update. And I got nothing lol.
Same ole same ole. 'cept, my mom ad dad decided they wanted to move to Ohio. I'm kinda on the fence.. I don't wanna leave all the people I love. :( But on the other hand, I hate California, I hate living here, and I couldn't be happier to leave. :/ I dunnooo. I'd probably never see any of them again. :( My grandma, my aunt and cousins.. the only family (besides immediate) that i've ever really known.
Siiiigh.
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[15 Jun 2005|10:41pm] |
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I never understood why I wait til the very last moment and mass do something. Like I had two weeks to put whitener on my teeth before I saw the dentist today, and I waited til 2 days before and did it 5 houts each day lol. Hmph. Something i'll never understand I guess! Since I never stop doing it lol.
Signups for school are soon. Yay! Or not. :l I don't really want to go lol, but waiting another year or even semester will drive me insane. So I must trudge on even though I don't want to really at all.
Sigh, i'll write more later!
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[10 Jun 2005|12:33am] |
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Sigh, another couple months with no updates. Sorry. :( I just can't remember to update this thing. Life has been boring anyways. Stressful! But boring.
You know how you just wish with everything you have the people you love and care for could be happy and healthy? That's been me lately. :( I dunno.. no one just seems to be happy lately. I hate seeing people like that.
Grandma's coming over tomorrow, should lighten things up a bit. I always enjoy her visits more for that reason. Everyone at least pretends to be happy.
Been getting a lot of movies from Netflix lately. The Ryan/Rachel kiss from the MTV movie awards finally enticed me to get Notebook. lol. Speaking of netflix! Anyone have an account and want to be my friend? I have like 2, and they are boring lol.
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Siiiigh, I hate when everyone is asleep. :( I can't keep myself occupied enough anymore lol. I've seen 2 of my friends go to bed and wake up for school. And i'm not even tired yet!! Hmmm, insomnia is a bitch.
I should go looking for Europeans to talk to lol. Ohhhhh well! I have a dentist appointment in a few hours, then work. Just gotta keep busy til then! *dies*
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[17 Apr 2005|11:23pm] |
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So, hi! Umm, lets see.
:: Rob Thomas' new album. AMAZING. I know, I know. But! It really is. With the exception of a few songs, it's actually one of the only solo albums I truly enjoy. And think better than the band's.
:: Speaking of.. Shinoda is coming out with a solo cd. I'm definitely on the fence about that. Because, no matter how talented and awesome a musician he is, I don't think he should be branching out. :( Causes bad chain reactions.
:: Umm, went to McDonalds today, and the lady who worked there looked at me as if I was insane. And said, and I quote!, "Do you think you are f'ing cute looking like that?" I was like O_o. I figure she was talking about my Manson esque eyemakeup. I didn't say anything. Just merely asked for the manager. Told her the story and she got busted. On the way out I looked at her and said, "No ma'am I don't think i'm cute. But at least I didn't just get fired from McDonalds." Guess it was a common occurence with her or something. Ohhhhhhh well. That's what ya get living here. *wishes for the millionth time that I could move*
:: You know the commercials for mascara with the 2 steps. First the white, then the black. And it's supposed to make it all volumized and bs. Lemme tell you! They are full of it. Me being the sucker I am for fine *cough* commercials, I bought some. The white was kinda cool! But it fades in after a while leaving the tips just white. Which is still cool.. but! When you try and put the black over it.. I couldn't get it all to be covered. And it was kinda.. clumpy. Maybe being the whole problem lol. So! I used my brain *cough* and put a few drops of water in it.. not the best idea. Didn't want to stay on the lashes and leaked in my eye lol. Worst part of all of this!? Is that it's a true story that just happened this afternoon! :X
:: Family life.. eh! It's been strained lately. But it's gotten increasingly better. My older brother got his own place. That stopped a lot of problems. :D Downside, we haven't seen him in like 3 weeks. But ehh, he'll come around when he needs something lol.
:: What's been going on with Dean you ask? Hee, a lot. Well not really. But you know. He "committed" suicide because I didn't talk to him. I was like :D Thank you God! You did the world a favor. Heh, I don't like him. :/ He was such an ass hole, and did such awful things. Such as this! Some boyfriend. :) But anywaysss, his friend told me that he always thinks about me. WTF. What the hell did he think I would say? "OMFGG! You mean.. he lied to me about being dead, but he still thinks about me, so let me call him up and tell him to have my babies!!!!11!!!" O_o Yeahh. Or not. Siiigh, men. Never cease to amaze!
:: I have a great friend unit now though. A few in particular. If they see me in a bad mood they'll try their hardest to make me smile. Heh. :)
:: Hmmmmmm! I've been LIVING ((well not really, but it seems like it!)) at the dentist lately. Been like 9-10 times in 3 weeks. Why you ask? Well I was playing tennis one fateful day, and fell face first breaking and killing my front tooth. Killing one on the bottom. And the problems just keep coming! :/ But at least it'll all be fixed finally. I guess. And all for a low low price of just under $4,000!! :l
And I think that's it for now!
Oh! American Idol and Alias. :D Alias mmmm. It's been getting so good. The twists and surprises are comin' back. I missed those! Just like 9 or so? more episodes til the season is over though. :((
American Idol! Ehhhhhh. I didn't want Nadia to go last week. :( I was hoping Scott. He has a fantastic voice, and in the beginning he was who I voted for, but he's grown/shown his attitude more lately. Same with Carrie. She seems to have gotten a big head. :X All I have left is Anthony! Which won't make it past many more shows lol. Anwar is enjoyable too.. but for some reason I ALWAYS forget he is even there.
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[17 Apr 2005|04:54am] |
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Heee! Hi! Update, errrr something lol, coming later today I promise! And imma go through yall's journal and comment like a mofo! :D
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[22 Feb 2005|02:28am] |
Wow! It's been awhile. Just been busy I suppose. lol Lets see.. not a lot has been happening lately. I watched "The Grudge" the other day, and it scared me so bad. :X I dunno why! It was a good movie, I liked the story, but I can't be in dark places without seeing things lol. And I didn't even watch all the parts! My eyes were closed 60% of the time. I'm a chicken, what can I say!
I went and watched "Hide and Seek" with my mom. EH. :/ Wasn't anything that outstanding. Dakota Fanning, is such an amazing little actress though. She always leaves me speachless. For being so young, and that fantastic. She's such a little cutie too!
Hmm, American Idol was alright tonight. They actually have awesome talent this year. I just hope it doesn't get voted off early due to bad song choices. *cough*AnthonyandConstantine*cough*. I forget what most of the girls sounded like, but I hope it's a better show tomorrow!
And it's gonna kinda suck that i'll never be able to watch the results show, thanks to Alias. But! omfg! Sark comes back this week. :D I loved him so. He's such an amazing character. Hopefully it'll pick the show back up. It's been seriously lacking lately. :( I blame Nadia.
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[21 Jan 2005|07:14pm] |
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Hmm! My family is falling apart. :( Ever so slowly.. I don't know how much longer it can withstand everything. I don't want to point blame, but it in reality is my brothers fault. He doesn't realize how much of a strain his actions put on everyone.
My mom sits around depressed all day, my dad works so much later then ever now.. it's just all.. messed up. :( Whenever it gets this bad usually divorce talk happens. Blah..
It just makes me realize how lucky I am to have Dean in my life. We've been through so many ups and downs, but he's still my rock. He listens to my problems, and actually cares as of late. He said he was gonna try harder because he didn't want to lose me.. and he's been so awesome! He is totally my blessing in life. Definitley my gardian angel. :))
But anyways! I rented "Napeleon Dynamite" today. It looks funny! I've heard mixed reviews, but looks like it'd amuse me. I hope so! I have to watch "The Village" too. You can't go wrong with M. Knight! <3
I wish it snowed in California. :(
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[14 Jan 2005|02:25am] |
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Hii! I'm bored. And dead tired. I should be asleep. But yet I never go to sleep when i'm tired. Weird huh?
Hmm, I don't really have much else to say lol. Life has been boring lately. Same 'ole same 'ole. Been really lonely lately, but eh. I'd rather be lonely then hurt and upset all the time!
Hopefully i'll have something more to write later. Until then stay well everyone! :) <3
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[04 Jan 2005|01:16pm] |
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So uhh, hi! Not really a lot to say.. well okay there is, but i'm too lazy to type it out now. :P
Alias in 2 more days! :D I am so giddy waiting for it. I hope it stays awesome like it was, and doesn't go the way of Smallville. *shudders* :l
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[19 Dec 2004|03:16am] |
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UNGH. He's such an ass. He called and was a complete ass, and got pissy when I wouldn't tell him what was bugging me. Well, wtf does he think! He was like, "HAVE A NICE LIFE BITCH! I MEAN NIGHT." *click* GRR MEN. *pushes him off a cliff* :X
ANYWAYS. My nana came to stay for a few weeks today. :D I'm happy. I love having her here. And my cousin is coming next week. It was so cute, she loves being here so much.. she was crying cause she couldn't come til next week. I feel sorry for her. :( No one is nice to her, and at school her only friend moved away. It's sad. :/ But at least she can be happy here. :) When my brother doesn't tell her never to come over again. :/ Yup. My family is.. odd. lol
So I was looking at dogs, cause I want one. :( A little teacup. And they have chihuahua teacups that are so tiny and cuute! I want one so bad. My mama said she'd get me one, it grows just a little bigger then a flip cell phone when it's closed. :D SO. CUTE. My mom says it looks like a rat, but I don't think so. They are adorable. And just what I want in a dog. Only bonds with one person really, and doesn't care much for anyone else. :D Now.. if it didn't bond with me it'd be a problem lol. But everyone else thinks they are ugly. Plus they have our other two dogs to bond with.
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[16 Dec 2004|03:32pm] |
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So he disappears for TWO weeks. Two. I know nothing happened to him, cause well, he was trying to teach me a lesson about how much I need him. But it just pissed me off. :/ And with ample reason to, I think. You don't just disappear on someone you "love more than anything in the world". PFFT. So he finally emails me something..
bottom line, you're a bitch.
I just kinda stared at that open mouthed for the longest time. :/ Tears sprung to my eyes, and yeah. :/ Is that what i've become? Is that what i've come to be?
All I know is, I AM SO DONE WITH THE MALE SPECIES. Screw love.
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